I've often heard people talk about reinventing themselves; usually in an upbeat tone, excited about their self and re-discovery. I recently fell prey to this when talking with a friend. For a moment I paused, laughed then reflected. Am I really "reinventing myself" or energizing a latent desire/wish?
How do we re-invent ourselves? Do we seek new experiences/adventures? Is this really a self-serving idea? Are we growing, searching for meaning? What does it really mean? Do we use the term as a way to escape stagnancy, the mundane or inertia?
But really I've thought about this a lot recently and wondered if my re-invention is spurred on because of aging or pursuing new experiences/challenges.
So what is the impetus for this new found re-invention, you ask?
I've changed jobs slightly and now work mostly in private practice. (I like my ER family and do miss them). Demands and expectations are a tad different, but my commitment to patients and providing good health care hasn't changed. There are new challenges, but working in an emergency room was great preparation. I am now looking into ways to broaden my scope, learning things that can enhance my work in a group private practice. Re-inventing myself, if you will. And the exciting thing is that I'm also doing the same in my creative work. I am learning life daily, always gaining wisdom (even when I doubt it) and being thankful, despite the stresses. I am embracing life with open arms, eyes and heart. I am reinventing myself, in spite of me.